It's Not a Bad Life

I had a really bad week. Like one of those "I'm dropping out of grad school"  and I'm gonna cry at the drop of a hat weeks. I barely slept and survived on diet coke and coffee. I babysat four nights in a row. I woke up exhausted every day. I had the grossest dark circles under my eyes. My lupus is flaring. I finished two assignments like five minutes before they were due. I didn't read the journal club article. I was so behind on life and I sucked. I did well on everything that went on school wise this week, but I sucked. I was snippy and overly sarcastic to my friends. I came up with at least three new backup plans for my life (to add to my ever growing list). I wanted to punch everyone in the face.

So, yeah. This week sucked and I've doubted my ability to be a competent OT several times every day. I have seriously considered taking my degree in university studies at the end of April and running. I told multiple people that I want to run away from my life. Even in all the bad there were really good moments too, like my friend's birthday and baby snuggles at work, and fun new babysitting jobs. God constantly reminded me that He is here and He is good even when I don't deserve it. So even though it was a really bad week, that doesn't make it a bad life.

Kristen in Progress: Take 2

It's been about two years since I first started this blog and about a year since I've last posted. I've been thinking a lot lately about coming back to my blog. I just haven't known what to do with it. Well today I logged on and just deleted everything. I was going to change the URL and title and everything, but that is pretty symbolic of my life as of late so I decided to keep it. I did, however, jazz it up with an ellipsis (which is even more symbolic of my life right now).

To be honest, I hated the old blog. It wasn't me, it wasn't real, and it just sucked. It was everything I didn't want my blog to be. I want my blog to be my real life honest ramblings, thoughts and dreams. I want to be able to share my real life doubts and hopes and prayers. I want this to be me with all my mistakes and weird quirks included.

So, here it is:

Kristen...in progress